Chapter 5.9: Dear Diary, Wrestling Match

Dear Diary, at the moment I’m wrestling with some things that had never concerned me before. If you remember, my girlfriend told me she wants a baby… with me. I had not ever given children a thought so this took me by surprise. It’s not that I don’t want children someday I just had never considered it. There are some things you figure will be in the far-out future.

Every woman in my life is older than me, including the one I’m seeing right now. I suppose that’s why she’s got kids on the brain. She probably figures her time for having children at all is close to an end. When we started seeing each other, everything sort of fell into place but this… this I never saw coming.

I didn’t give her an answer and she said she understood that I needed time. Meanwhile, I needed to get my mind off of life. Our ballet company’s season was almost over for the year, so I would have several weeks off before the next season started. I would, of course, continue my private rehearsals and pilates. I’d added more strength training to my regimen as well as jogging. I was determined to be a lead from now on.

Finally, I decided instead of going crazy about this baby thing, I could see a movie even if I went by myself. Chris was still working the night shift and Rosetta was rarely home, so it was just me.

I was just reaching for the theater door handle when I heard someone call my name from behind. As soon as I heard the voice, my whole body tensed and my pulse quickened.

“Hi, Holden,” Fletcher said.

If he felt awkward about seeing me, he didn’t show it. As for me, I felt the color leaving my face all at once right along with my confidence.

“Yeah… hi,” I mumbled.

“Are you here to see a show?”

No, Fletcher, I’m here, hoping I’ll run into you, I snidely thought.

“I saw Star of the Gods the other night. You were great.”

Fletcher didn’t look any different to me. He was as handsome as ever with his porcelain skin and expressive gray eyes. He was even wearing the color I loved most on him. Suddenly, it was hard to swallow around the lump in my throat.

“You came to the show?”

Nodding enthusiastically, he smiled a little. “I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. I’ve always been so proud of your art.”

How could he talk to me like this? Like everything was fine between us. Like he hadn’t broken my heart which now was banging against my chest as if it wanted to escape. I could barely form words at this point.

“Y-you look good,” I finally managed to say.

“Thanks,” he said.

“I – I have to go.”

Glancing toward the theater door, he said, “Oh do you have someone waiting inside?”

“No,” I said too quickly, mentally kicking myself for admitting I was alone.

“Holden,” Fletcher began, his eyes darkening. “I have wanted to tell you for a long time that I’m sorry about how things ended with us.”

I could barely comprehend what he meant and frankly, his saying that only ruffled my feathers all the more. “Really.” It wasn’t a question.

He held his breath for a moment before responding. “Yes, really. What I did was rash and hurtful and I’m sorry.”

What did that even mean? Did he regret leaving me? I know I did.

“The film’s going to start.”

“Forget the film,” he snapped. “I’m trying to apologize for how I acted. I should have trusted you.”

“Yeah, you really should have. But you didn’t.”

“You really didn’t make it very easy, though, you have to admit.”

“I don’t have to admit anything,” I said, my voice shaking.

He bit his lower lip for a moment before saying anything else. “Are you seeing anyone?”

Normally, I would have mentioned something along the lines about how this wasn’t any of his business, but I wanted to hurt him. I wanted him to feel even a fraction of the pain that had entered my soul the day he walked away without me.

“Yeah, actually I am. She’s everything I’ve ever wanted.”

“Oh, wow.”

“Yeah, we’re even talking about having a baby.”

He seemed genuinely surprised by this bit of information. “You must really love her then.”

“Yeah, everything’s great.”

As I walked away, I should have felt satisfied that perhaps I’d caused him some hurt. But seeing his downcast face when I told him about “the baby” only made me feel worse. Why had I thrown that at him? What inside of me wanted to hurt him?

I kept walking, too ashamed of myself to turn around. All I wanted at that point was to be swallowed up by the ground, never to be seen again.

If I was anyone else, I would have sunk into the depths of despair. But like I’ve said before, I’m not the suffering kind. Seeing Fletcher shook me up hard. Seeing him forced me to look at myself differently and face things about myself I’d pushed away for my own sanity.

I still loved him. Desperately. Yet, look how I’d treated him.

“Did you make up your mind already?” my girl said as I stared out the window of her bedroom. “I didn’t think I’d see you until tonight.”

“I felt like seeing you now,” I said.

Every time I looked at her, I was moved by her beauty. She was gorgeous inside and out.

“Well, I won’t complain about that.”

Her laugh reminded me of champagne glasses tinkling against each other. It was natural, like everything else about her.

Standing on my right side, she slipped her arm around my waist and, on her tiptoes, kissed me.

“Do you love me?” I asked her, my voice soft.

She laughed again and kissed my cheek. “You’re so precious. You know what this is… FWB and hopefully, a child.” When I frowned, she squeezed my hand. “Okay, this is more than FWB, I’ll admit it. I do adore you and I want you to be the father of my child.”

“What does that mean?” I asked.

“What does what mean?”

“Well, this supposed baby. I’m not sure I’m ready to be a father. You pretty much blindsided me with this.”

“Oh, come on. I’m not asking you to be a father. I have a great job that pays well. I can take care of a baby on my own. No strings.”

“No strings,” I murmured.

“That’s right.”

“It doesn’t seem right, though. What if I want to be in this child’s life?”

“If that’s what it takes for you to have a baby with me, then that’s fine, too. I won’t deny you access to your own child.”

“I need a little more time,” I told her.

“Where have you been?” Rosetta asked as I let myself into the house and sat at the bar across from where she was making drinks.

“Just out.”

“You have been so reticent about your personal affairs.”

“Yes, yes I have,” I said.

“Do you want a drink?”

“You already know the answer to that.”

She shrugged before hitting the button on the blender.

“I saw Fletcher today.”

She stopped pouring out the drinks into glasses to stare at me, her mouth in the shape of a little “o.”

“Really? How did that go?”

“As poorly as you can imagine,” I said with a sigh.

She didn’t even try to hide the smile on her face. “Well, he’s old news anyway. I never liked him.”

I couldn’t help but roll my eyes as she stated the obvious. “That’s not a big secret.”

“Oh, please, don’t tell me you’re still upset over all that? It’s been ages since he broke up with you.”

“Rosetta,” Chris began as he came in from work. “Leave ‘im alone already. He was in love and he can’t just pretend he doesn’t feel that way.”

Loved, past tense,” she said. “Do you want a drink?”

“Sure, I’m off duty now.”

As Chris answered her, Rosetta’s words echoed in my brain. Loved, past tense.

“I still love him,” I murmured, averting my eyes.

“After all this time?” Rosetta asked.

“I’m sorry,” Chris said to me. “I know it must have been really hard seeing him today.”

“Holden, you need to be more like me. I’m driven and independent. Nothing, not even a man, is going to get between me and what I want.”

“What if what I want is a family?” I asked, my voice still soft. I felt as if all energy had been slowly seeped out of every pore in my body.

Rosetta wrinkled her nose. “Are you serious? Well, if that is the case, you certainly don’t want a family with that imbecile.”

“Imbecile? Really?” I yelled suddenly. “You never even got to know him! Not once were you kind to him! And you know what, if I could have a family with him, I would in a heartbeat!”

She jumped a little when I raised my voice. “Apparently, you are upset and not thinking clearly at the moment. Which is another reason to loathe Fletcher.”

Chris shook his head as if he could stop her from saying anything more.

“Yeah, I’m upset, Rosie.” I stood up. It wouldn’t do any good to point out to her how heartless she was being. My other option was to excuse myself and hit the treadmill.

I was partway up the stairs when Julie knocked and entered.

“Hi, guys. I wondered if I could spend the night tonight.”

Finally! Someone in the house who wasn’t crazy.

“Sure,” I said.

Chris and Rosetta waved and told her hello, then turned back to their discussion over drinks.

“Thank you so much. I have really good news!”

I was glad someone did. “What’s going on?”

“The women’s shelter helped me find a therapist, who in turn, gave me some leads on an affordable apartment!”

“That’s great, Jules,” I grinned.

“The apartment won’t be ready until this weekend, hence the reason I asked if I could stay here.”

“Sure, as long as you want.” I couldn’t help but smile at her. She seemed more like the old Julie I knew and less like the scared, withdrawn friend of recent days.

“My therapist also helped me get a pro-bono lawyer. He’s supposed to be really good! I meet with him on Friday and I’m going to file for divorce. It’s something I need to do to get Paisley back.”

“Wow, Jules, it seems like everything is falling into place. I’m so happy for you.”

“Thank you so much for not giving up on me. You’re the best friend anyone could ever have.”

Pulling her into my arms, I held her familiar little body and kissed the top of her head. “I’m really so happy for you. Is it hard being away from Brent?”

“In a way, yes. I think he’s going to make me miserable if he can. My therapist said that guys like him will do anything to see the person they abused. He said I might be taken to court for crazy reasons just so Brent can see me. I’m scared but I’m not going to give up because I can’t live without Paisley. I need to protect her from him, I understand that now.”

I couldn’t have been more relieved than to hear her say these things. For the first time, I really felt like she was going to make it and be okay.

That night, after everyone had gone up to bed, I stayed up a little longer, staring into the fireplace. Fletcher and I used to like sitting here in the late evening, talking about all of the things that had happened during the day. Sometimes we fantasized about our future together, and other times, we didn’t need to talk at all.

As the flame bounced around and licked the walls inside the fireplace, I wrestled again with my thoughts. My life might always be a lonely one. Fletcher, who I loved even now, had dumped me. The woman I was seeing at the moment admitted I was nothing more than a booty call and possible father for her baby. Was this all I could ever expect to have?

Logically, I realized I was being overdramatic. I still had plenty of future in front of me so why was I so upset? It was just one more thing to wrestle with.

Thank you so much for reading,

2018-09-01T12:38:29+00:00

60 Comments

  1. NotJustaBook June 30, 2018 at 10:22 am - Reply

    It’s so sad for Holden that the woman he’s with doesn’t love him back 🙁 And to see Fletcher like that… poor guy. It was a bit of a half-baked apology though. That’s not how you apologise, Fletcher! Gosh 😛
    Good to see that Julie is doing well, at least.
    Though, jeez, Rosetta… I love her and all, but wow, that was COLD. She needs to check herself.
    I enjoyed this as always, though, Kym <3 You’ve got such a great bunch of interesting characters here <3

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 4:05 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Louise! 🙂 Fletcher and Holden are a mess right now, aren’t they? This won’t be the last time they run into each other. Julie is doing much better since taking Chris’s advice. Rosetta is cold, that’s for sure. She does not hold anything back even when she should. I’m so glad you’re enjoying the story as well as the characters.

  2. loladiamond01 June 30, 2018 at 10:26 am - Reply

    Hey, Holden, not all is lost. There’s Julie, right there, waiting for you. You can make a family with her and I’m sure she would be better than Fletcher and Mystery Woman! But I guess this ship still needs time sigh.
    Holden overreacted at this meeting with Fletcher, but I can understand why he did. I can’t see them working out, though, they both hurt each other badly and there’s no going back to how it was. Rosetta is still… Rosetta, I guess, the very same. I wish she was more understanding, but I can’t see that happening, being a bitch is what you’re born with, apparently. “After all this time?” reminded me of a line from Harry Potter when Snape is asked about loving Lilly, Harry’s mother, and he responds “always”. I’m not a hardcore fan, but I saw a lot fans get excited over this all over the net.
    Ah, I wish things were easier for Holden, but there’s some good news in this chapter after all, and that’s the fact that Julie is getting through this. Go, Jules!

    • loladiamond01 June 30, 2018 at 10:27 am - Reply

      Hey, I had no idea that adding the * makes your text go yellow. Good to now!

      • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 4:11 pm - Reply

        You know what? I found that out by accident, too, in one of my responses to you a while back. 😀 It’s strange, isn’t it?

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 4:10 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Jowita! 🙂 Yes, Julie is right there, that’s true. Something is going to happen REALLY soon, though, so I’m not sure she and Holden are right for each other. 😀 You’re right that Holden and Fletcher have hurt each other a great deal. It might be too hard to forget the past. We shall see. As for Rosetta, she needs some help in the people skills. haha There is no mental filter there that most people hopefully have. 😛

      I love that moment in HP! I was a huge Snape fan. lol

      Go, Jules, for sure! 😀

  3. cathytea June 30, 2018 at 12:20 pm - Reply

    Oh, Holden! He’s so different from everyone else, and so he doesn’t yet realize that his life and loves will look different than everyone else’s and he’ll just make himself miserable when he tries to fit into the common mold . Let yourself shine, Holden ! Have faith! It will work out and be so much better than ordinary !

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 4:13 pm - Reply

      Thank you, CT 🙂 I couldn’t love your comment any more than I do. You are right in everything you said. Holden IS different. I totally agree with the fact that whatever he decides, he shouldn’t try to fit himself into some kind of mold. I have faith, too. <3

  4. Marjorie Flo Watts June 30, 2018 at 1:16 pm - Reply

    I really feel for Holden. Everyone wants and needs to love and be loved, but being loved back seems to be evading him. I hope he doesn’t go the “father of my child” route, as I know he would later regret it unless he could be a part of the child’s life. And you certainly couldn’t blame him for feeling”used”! I’m glad Fletcher tried to apologize. If Holden had been a bit less shaken, and actually talked with Fletcher, things may have ended on a better note between them. It was Fletcher’s idea to approach Holden and apologize, but neither of them seemed to handle it too well! That’s okay, I think they will be seeing more of each other, soon, or I hope so! As for Rosetta, she needs a BIG dose of people skills, and needs to find the definition of empathy. I’d like to just “shake her silly”, as my mom used to say! =D Poor Chris! How can he be so head over heels for Rosetta when she is such a cold-hearted person most of the time? Sigh And last but not least – Yay Julie!!! This was a busy chapter, for sure! I also want to say how much I enjoy your descriptive prowess; it’s very elegant at times, and always enjoyable! As usual, can’t wait til next week!! ♥

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 4:20 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Marj 🙂 He’s not having much luck in the love department, it’s true. I think you’re right that if he had a child with whoever the woman is, he would regret it if he wasn’t a part of the baby’s life. He might feel used, that’s for sure, but perhaps he’ll talk himself into it. We’ll see very soon.

      Fletcher did try to apologize so maybe he’s grown up a little bit. Fletcher is definitely figuring into the next chapter or two. I like him a lot, so it’s hard not having him there all the time. lol

      Rosetta is very lacking in people skills, you are right. haha I don’t know if she will ever feel anything even remotely close to empathy. I like “shake her silly” because if I could reach into my game, I would definitely do that! haha That’s a good question about Chris, but you will find he’s near the end of his patience with it all.

      Julie is on the road to recovery! Woot! So, there was something positive in this chapter. hahaha

  5. joliesattic June 30, 2018 at 3:33 pm - Reply

    My oldest daughter is a Rosetta and she can often be harsh and indelicate. What is it with these girls?
    Holden was not smart in his responses. Not at all. I think Fletcher was doing the best he could with what he has and if it were me, I’d have milked him for more information. Did Holden not wonder what his life may have been like?
    I don’t know if a FWB would be enough for him, it would get old, too fast.
    This is not what Holden needs or wants and the sooner he figures it out the better. At this point, if Holden went over his diary and really read what he’s written, he’d be certain of his direction. Quite frankly and in my opinion, he needs to find his own place or one with just Chris, because they are in the same boat. Rosetta needs to be out of both their lives. Both these guys are far too sensitive to have her knocking them around all the time.

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 4:26 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Jolie 🙂 I don’t know about these girls. I will admit that Rosetta is fun to write even though she has no filter on what she says. Well, it’s the lack of filter that makes her fun for me. lol

      You’re right about Holden and Fletcher both. I think Holden could have tried to listen instead of figuring out what he could say that might hurt Fletcher. And, yeah, I’m sure now that the conversation is over, Holden is probably kicking himself because he knows nothing about Fletcher’s life. He probably could have milked that if he’d has his head on right. lol

      The FWB is probably already getting old for him. I don’t think that’s a bad idea, for Holden to reread his diary, I mean. I couldn’t agree more about the living situation, too. Hopefully, Rosetta will be gone most of the time with her parents or her job with the Mayor. lol

      • joliesattic June 30, 2018 at 6:37 pm - Reply

        My heart goes out to both Holden and Chris. I sooo feel for them.

        • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 6:51 pm - Reply

          Me, too. Let’s hope it isn’t too long before they find happiness.

  6. socallucyfan June 30, 2018 at 7:55 pm - Reply

    Yes, Holden over reacted to seeing Fletcher again, but his half-assed apology wasn’t all that great either. There is still a lot of love between them.
    And what about this mystery woman. I didn’t think that their relationship was very deep, but hearing it from the other person hurt.
    At least life for Julie is getting back on the right track.

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 8:02 pm - Reply

      Thank you so much 🙂 I think there’s love between Holden and Fletcher, too. They really didn’t give each other a real chance there. Oh this woman Holden is involved with. She is older than he is and just isn’t looking for anything serious. Holden didn’t especially like hearing it either. lol

      YAY for Julie! lol There is that.

  7. Rosie June 30, 2018 at 8:40 pm - Reply

    Poor Holden. 🙁 You’re upset because Fletcher didn’t just dump you. He dumped you, then your best friend threw you aside for her crazy husband, then Ella happened and now this girl wants you to have babies and nothing else! It’s not just one thing. It may not have all happened so close together, but close enough to give your head quite a spin. I’m kind of hoping he tells this chick no. At least things are looking up with Julie, but that’s just one nice thing compared to the bundle of awful. Again I say, poor Holden!

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 8:49 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Rosie. 🙂 Gosh, when you say it all like that, it seems pretty tragic. lol But you are right! All Holden is seeking is someone that will love him and let him be him. If that makes sense. Maybe he should stop searching and see what happens. haha It couldn’t turn out any worse, I don’t think. :O Poor Holden, indeed.

  8. Violincat June 30, 2018 at 8:55 pm - Reply

    Rosetta needs to realize that her words are hurting Holden. But at the same time, Fletcher is problematic. His apology was more of a way to excuse why he acted like a jerk. And no, Holden didn’t actually give him any cause for jealousy.
    I think Holden should reconsider his relationship with the mystery lady. It’s either no strings attached or a baby. Not both at the same time.

    • Kymber June 30, 2018 at 9:13 pm - Reply

      Thank you so much, Violincat. 🙂 I couldn’t agree more about Rosetta. She has no social skills or empathy.

      I like your take on how things went between Fletcher and Holden. You’ve described it perfectly.

      And the new woman? Yes! I think that’s right, too. Not both at the same time.

  9. audreyfld July 1, 2018 at 12:09 am - Reply

    I love Holden and my heart is breaking for him. Chris is the only one that is taking up for him. Shipping him so bad with Julie. This older lady that wants a baby…run…and don’t look back. Forget Fletcher, he’s too high maintenance and what kind of apology was that anyway. I know he’s confused and sis doesn’t help. Great mystery going on here!

    • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 12:14 am - Reply

      Thank you so much, Audrey. 🙂 Maybe if Holden speaks to his therapist, he can actually see things more clearly. Rosetta probably needs to zip it and she’s not going to take any signals from Chris even though he is sending them. LOL

  10. lisabeesims July 1, 2018 at 2:49 am - Reply

    Still a tiny bit too early to board the ship for me .. but I am standing in line at the ticket counter 🙂

    • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 7:17 am - Reply

      Thank you, Lisa 🙂 LOL Hopefully, the line isn’t too long. haha You’re right, though, it’s a little early in the game for the ship. 😀

  11. raymondsanti July 1, 2018 at 2:52 am - Reply

    Hang in there Holden, things will get better! I wish his interaction with Fletcher had gone better, but maybe it’s best for now if he leaves Fletcher in the past. He needs to move on. And this mystery woman who only wants him as a baby daddy isn’t the right way to do that. But maybe that’s how we’ll end up with a genetically related heir if Holden and Fletcher did get back together?

    • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 7:20 am - Reply

      Thank you so much, Raymond. 🙂 That’s a really good point about having a genetically related heir. That’s the one rule I made for myself that I don’t want to break. I’m really interested in seeing what future generations look like compared to Memphis. I think Rosetta has a lot of Memphis’s looks about her. 😀

      Anyway, let’s hope Holden makes a good decision. 😀

  12. sempreviva July 1, 2018 at 2:53 am - Reply

    Poor Holden..! 🙁 Seeing Fletcher must certainly have made him a mess! And that mystery lady doesn’t help either, admitting that she only wants him for his genes – what kind of person does that?!
    I admit that I can’t understand why Fletcher is describing her as “beautiful inside and out”, when she definitely does not justify that description – well, the “inside” part at least!
    And Rosie! Just wait a little until you voice your opinion on Fletcher, geez! You can clearly see that your brother isn’t over him yet, so what good are your remarks gonna make at this point? smh
    At least there’s good news with Julie! 😀 I really hope everything works out for her..! <3

    • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 7:23 am - Reply

      Thank you so much 🙂 Seeing Fletcher really brought Holden’s unresolved feelings forward. And you’re right about this gf, too. You’ll find out soon why she’s so anxious to have a baby with Holden, although that doesn’t make it right. As for the beautiful on the inside and out, Holden often seems to have rose colored glasses on. lol

      Oh, Rosie! She really knows how to put her foot in her mouth and not even realize she’s done it.

      You’re right, at least Julie had some good news. LOL

  13. Jes2G July 1, 2018 at 9:07 am - Reply

    I guess my “oh no it’s Fletcher” FB sentiment was an accurate one lol. I’m glad he apologized, but he still seems to be a bit…I dunno…clingy? “I’m sorry…are you seeing anyone?” LOL wow, dude. Maybe clingy isn’t the word. Selfish may be better. Everything was always about him, and it still seems that is the case. He was never in tune to what Holden feels and still isn’t. I hope Holden realizes that one day. One day soon!

    As far as this baby mama drama goes, uhhh, Holden honey? Just run LOL. She’s pretty much a rebound, right? You don’t want to get into anything serious with your rebound. Besides, she keeps telling you you’re not that important to her! Run away! Find something productive to do with your time until you and Julie are ready to admit how you feel about each other, he he he. 😛

    I enjoyed this: “Her laugh reminded me of champagne glasses tinkling against each other. It was natural, like everything else about her.”

    • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 1:42 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Jess 🙂 Yes, you were spot on when you said “oh no it’s Fletcher!” LOL Clingy is actually a good word in this instance. Or selfish. I really hope Holden realizes all of that soon, too.

      Oh yeah, the baby mama drama (haha), I totally agree with you here, too. I don’t know if Holden can hear us, though. 😛 Yes, she is a rebound, for sure. Another Julie shipper, eh? 😀

      Thank you so much. 🙂 I’m so happy you liked that line.

      • Jes2G July 1, 2018 at 1:45 pm - Reply

        Make it so that Holden can hear me!

        • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 2:02 pm - Reply

          Will do! Mainly because I don’t want to be on probation again. hahaha

          • Jes2G July 1, 2018 at 2:05 pm

            LOL good call!

          • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 2:18 pm

            LOL!! 😀

  14. Graham July 1, 2018 at 2:29 pm - Reply

    Hi. Interesting as usual. I’m just curious how you do your images? They must take ages to augment the text…and what do you do first?

    • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 8:23 pm - Reply

      Hi, Graham! Thank you for your kind words! I’m so glad you find the story interesting. 🙂 I take the images first using sims that I have digitally sculpted. I use The Sims 3 to illustrate my stories. Then, I write the chapter. I already know how I want the chapter to go, but sometimes I get a good photo that changes my initial idea. 😀 I hope this helped to answer your question. Thank you again.

      • Graham July 1, 2018 at 9:31 pm - Reply

        That’s fantastic! Great idea! I love the idea of posing sims.

        • Kymber July 1, 2018 at 9:34 pm - Reply

          Thank you! I’m so glad you like it. It’s a lot of fun to do.

  15. Lila Remonn July 2, 2018 at 7:56 am - Reply

    Fletcher! I’m glad he came and apologised, in a fairly nice way. I think he’s going to have to do a lot more, though, to gain Holden’s affections back — clearly he is still hurt by that whole ordeal. They do obviously still have feelings for each other so I’m gonna root for them!
    I still cheer when Holden gives Rosetta a piece of his mind. She might be all logic, but Holden does have a voice of reason. I hate it when she dismisses his feelings, that line about ‘not thinking clearly at the moment’ — Rosetta, your brother may be more emotional than you, but that doesn’t mean he’s a total idiot! I’m liking Chris more and more though. It seems he’s finally becoming independent and not cluelessly following her anymore. I like his balance between logical and empathetic.
    Holden, leave that mysterious lady! She herself admits she doesn’t love you! Don’t give her your genes, darn it!
    I’m happy to see that Julie is finally moving towards a better place 🙂
    Great chapter <3

    • Kymber July 3, 2018 at 1:50 pm - Reply

      Thank you so much, Lila! 🙂 Yeah, I think Fletcher wanted to do the right thing and apologize even if their meeting kind of went sideways. Hope is never lost, though. I think you’re right that they both still have some unresolved feelings for each other.

      Holden might, in the future, be even harder on her… You will see why. hehe

      I think Chris is becoming more independent, as you said. He’s a police officer now, and I think that has boosted his confidence. He’s really a good guy and a good friend to have, I think.

      Run, Holden, run! LOL I hear you all screaming that.

      Julie is on the road to mending. Hopefully, she’ll have her new apartment and job with Paisley returned to her soon.

  16. bmitjessesue July 2, 2018 at 9:44 am - Reply

    Fletcher – the guy can’t even apologize without being a jerk!!!! Send him packing!!

    Rosetta – “Holden, you need to be more like me. I’m driven and independent. Nothing, not even a man, is going to get between me and what I want.” And Holden has been sitting on the couch just dreaming of being the best ballet dancer???? Getting every girl pregnant in town instead? Oh Rosetta, you may have the sight, but you are blind when it comes to certain things about your brother…I wonder why though.

    Jules – Now he gets to see that his mother was actually right. Jules is getting her life back together, which probably wouldn’t have happened if she had stayed with him. I’m so glad her “bad guy” isn’t going to win in this situation.

    The baby request – I think the fact that he is spending so much time considering all the possibilities, shows what a great heart he has! I’m sure deep down, he likes the idea of having something of a family, since his own was stretched out and scattered. Babies bring light and joy to the world and thoughts of them, such happy thoughts and feelings. Instinctual thoughts and feelings. But is it the right thing for him? Only he knows deep down.

    • Kymber July 3, 2018 at 1:59 pm - Reply

      Thank you so much, Bee 🙂 Bye bye, Fletch! LOL

      That is such a good point about Rosetta and what she said to Holden about how he should be more like her. He has accomplished a lot. Most of the goals he set for himself, he has reached. I like what you said about how she has the sight but is blind when it comes to her brother.

      Yes, Marty was right. 🙂 I’m glad her bad guy is going to lose, too. Julie is really putting in an effort.

      Holden does have a great heart, doesn’t he? He does want a family, it’s true, because his childhood, while better than most, was weird. That’s so true about babies in general. 🙂 I like what you said there.

  17. Simsophonique July 5, 2018 at 4:48 pm - Reply

    Leave both of these people Holden, somebody better is on your path, you deserve happiness not being taken for an object.
    I am happy for Julie things is slowly building up for the good , that she understood Brent is a jerk.

    • Kymber July 6, 2018 at 4:38 am - Reply

      Thank you so much 🙂 I agree… Holden should probably run as far away as he can.

      I’m glad about Julie, too. I think she is on the right path now.

      • Simsophonique July 6, 2018 at 10:01 am - Reply

        Yes we can hope the situation will be better for Julie however I hope she will be forever in peace far away from Brent.
        Of course everybody he loves seems to use him because Holden is naive.

        • Kymber July 6, 2018 at 12:35 pm - Reply

          I hope that about Julie, too. She needs a new start with her daughter.

          Holden is a bit naive. I think that’s why Rosetta is so protective over him.

          • Simsophonique July 6, 2018 at 5:18 pm

            Rosetta is right to protect her twin but she has to give him air for himself too. She over do.
            Of course Julie really deserves a new start with a fiancé who are truly there for her. Not a nasty piece of crap.

          • Kymber July 7, 2018 at 7:19 am

            You’re right about Rosetta, she does overdo it quite a bit. I agree about Julie, too. She deserves a happy life.

  18. heatherfeather19 July 6, 2018 at 11:37 am - Reply

    Fletcher! I understand why Holden wanted to hurt him in that moment. He must have been shocked to see him in the first place. I wish Holden and Fletcher could be friends again.

    The mystery woman answered Holden’s question really strangely, she just dodged saying the word love. Honestly she’s treating him like a sperm bank, but Holden did not sign up for that!

    • Kymber July 6, 2018 at 12:37 pm - Reply

      Thank you, Heather. 🙂 I agree that Holden was pretty shocked to run into Fletcher. I think in time, they’ll be friends again.

      The mystery woman is strange, true. Hopefully, Holden will make the right decision.

  19. Simsered July 6, 2018 at 11:09 pm - Reply

    Ugh, I saw Fletcher and got so excited! But that feeling didn’t last long. I just want them to make up and be happy. 😪
    Rosetta always seems to be making drinks. The more I see of her the more she irks me too. Her personality really gets on my nerves, and she is just so nosy when it comes to Holden’s life.
    I’m so happy for Julie though! I hope everything works out for her and Paisley. ❤️

    • Kymber July 7, 2018 at 7:33 am - Reply

      Thank you so much. 🙂 I know what you mean about Fletcher and dashed hopes. I think if they ever did get back together, they would both need to grow up some more.

      Rosetta is very attached to that bar. lol And she definitely steps over the line constantly where Holden is concerned. Maybe she will grow up, too. lol

      Julie seems to be on the right track now. I think she will be okay – a real success story! 🙂

  20. Hyperion July 8, 2018 at 10:38 pm - Reply

    Wow, I followed you back over and found this is a unique and cool way to write a story. I need to drop back to the beginning and catch up. Interestingly enough, I’m an INFJ and you are the only other person I’ve met who is also INFJ. So pleased to meet you, Kymber.

    • Kymber July 8, 2018 at 10:54 pm - Reply

      Hi there! I’m so glad you followed. 😀 You’re an INFJ? Wow! I’m very pleased to meet you, too. Thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. It really means a lot. I hope you will enjoy the story. 🙂

      • Hyperion July 9, 2018 at 5:57 pm - Reply

        I know your story is going to keep me intrigued. INFJ high five! ✋🏼

        • Kymber July 9, 2018 at 6:49 pm - Reply

          Right on and thank you! 😀

  21. freja64 July 14, 2018 at 11:50 pm - Reply

    Oh, that scary biological clock… Holden is rollerblading – happiness and a bright professional future vs emotional despair…

    • Kymber July 15, 2018 at 5:02 pm - Reply

      Thank you so much. 😀 You’re so right. What is he to do? :O 😀

  22. freja64 July 14, 2018 at 11:55 pm - Reply

    *Rollercoasting….

    • Kymber July 15, 2018 at 5:02 pm - Reply

      Yes, I knew what you meant. 😀 😀

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Hi, my name is Kymber but you may know me by my pseudonym, Rosemary Castevet. I’m an author, simmer, Registered Nurse, Judy Garland devotee and horror buff. Did I mention I’m currently owned by Cesare the cat? On top of all of that, I’m a redheaded INFJ who is also a vegan.

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