Chapter 4.15: Dear Diary, I’m Trying… Very Trying

by Kymber
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Content Warning: the “sh–” word x 1. πŸ™‚


Babies? As in more than one?” Xalen exclaimed at my slip of the tongue.

Dear Diary, yes, I was still in a locked vault with Xalen and having contractions about every eight minutes.

“Yes, twins,” I gasped as another pain had me in its grip.

“We need to talk about this.”

Through gritted teeth, I said, “I can’t say that I really feel like talking right now!”


As if the gravity of the situation hit him full force, he said, “Oh, no, of course not,” and he pulled me into his arms. “It’s going to be all right.”

For a blessed moment, I rested my head on his shoulder and was able to somewhat relax. As he tenderly took my hand, I breathed in the familiar scent of leather and mint. What I would have given to stay like that forever! But, the twins had other plans.


Pushing him away, I bent forward slightly, barely able to breathe as my abdomen tightened like a vise and pain thundered through my back and stomach.

“We’ve got to get out of here!”

“No shit!” My sudden obscene outburst seemed to make him come unglued completely.

Putting his hands to his head, he shouted, “What do I do?”

“You’re a doctor, figure it out!”

“I’m not that kind of doctor!”

“Are you trying to help right now? Because you seriously aren’t helping!”


Turning my back to him, I leaned on the nearest case and closed my eyes. The contractions were closer together now, possibly only two or three minutes apart. This was all moving along much faster than I’d anticipated as I’d always heard that the first baby was usually slow to arrive. I never expected to labor so quickly once it began.

“Xalen, I’m in trouble,” I gasped, “this is happening really fast and I’m not having them in here. I refuse!”

Resting his hand on the small of my back, he said, “I don’t know how long we are going to be in here so we are going to plan for the worst – or, um, I am. Do not worry, I will get us through this.”

I had no idea how he was going to manage this, I was just glad he was over his freaking out moment and that he seemed calm now.


“Hey, what is this?” I asked through heaving breaths.

“Really? This is what you are concerned with right now?”

“The material is so strange and – hey, what are these markings?”

Before he could answer me, I doubled over again, finding it hard to stay on my feet.


Xalen tried to support me yet in my agony, I pushed him away. “Don’t touch me.”

Instead of taking offense, he checked his phone for the millionth time then grimaced. As calmly as he could manage, he began searching drawers and the displays, grabbing the blanket like wraps from underneath the artifacts.


“What are you doing?”

“We have to wrap the babies in something when they arrive.”


OMG, was I really going to have them in here? I couldn’t bear the thought.


The contractions were no longer coming every couple minutes. Now, it felt like one long, continuous pain that literally dropped me to my hands and knees on the floor. Xalen uncertainly stepped closer to me, but he didn’t touch me.

A strange pressure was building up, making me grunt. It was a few minutes of this before I realized I was pushing.


There was no stopping this now and the sooner I got it in my head that I wasn’t getting to a hospital anytime soon, the sooner I could deal with what I had to do now…



Diary, just to clarify, the bank was evacuated for 40 minutes while the fire dept. figured out there wasn’t a fire. Xalen and I were actually in the vault for much longer because apparently, they couldn’t just open it. There were safeties in place which prevented our freedom for several hours. If I wasn’t claustrophobic before, I definitely am now.





So, that is the story of how Holden and Rosetta came into the world. (A story that, although fascinating, makes me cringe every time I think about it.) And, if I have to admit it, Xalen really came through when things got tough, which is more, I suppose than he could say about me.

We were all home, now, safe and sound. Susan was really wonderful about chipping in and making sure we ate. I was so sore… no one really tells you what happens after you give birth. To your body, I mean.

Every morning, I wake up to some new horror show going on. Like, my boobs suddenlyΒ being hard as rocks and red hot to the touch or needing sitz baths every couple hours because… well, stitches down there don’t feel too great. Why does no one talk about this or warn a person?


In other news, Xalen is totally starry-eyed every time I look at him. To my relief, he loves these little guys and can’t get enough of them. We haven’t really talked about anything important yet but I know I can’t avoid the subject for much longer.


At the moment, we’re just kind of basking in the wonder of these two little things. I don’t have to remind you that the idea of having children was something I abhorred.


Now that they’re in my arms, my heart feels like it can’t get any fuller with the unexpected love I have for them. Holden and Rosetta are so tiny and fragile. They depend on me completely for their needs and I’m determined not to let them down.


Sometimes, while they’re sleeping, they reach for each other.


And we find ourselves staring at how perfect they are.


What will they grow up to be?

I wanted to be a great explorer but thoughts of that have drifted out of my mind until all I care about is making sure these two kids, who didn’t ask to be here, have everything I can give them.


It was late and the babies were sleeping, so I decided to try to sleep, too. I couldn’t, though. There were too many things swimming around in my head. Too many questions left unanswered.

I heard a knock at the door and Xalen quietly stepped inside.

“May I?” he asked, gesturing at the bed.

How I longed to have him next to me there for the rest of my life!

“Sure, you must be exhausted.”


“No more than you are,” he said as he stretched out near me. “We should talk.”

“About what?” I asked. Playing dumb was something I was a champion at.

“I know we won’t have the paternity test back for a month or two, but I want you to know that I am not going anywhere. Whatever the truth is, I am determined to look after these babies as if they are my own.”


My heart fluttered as I thought about how noble he was. “I can’t ask you to do that. If they aren’t yours, then they aren’t your responsibility.”

Sighing deeply, he said, “Are we back to that again? Understand this, Marty, you are not asking, I am telling you. Either way, these children are my flesh and blood and I will not be cut out of their lives.”

“I didn’t mean I would cut you out,” I quickly said.

“Quit trying to push me away.”


As I thought about what he said, I came to realize that pushing him away was exactly what I was doing. Why would I do that? I kept saying it was because I loved him yet I wasn’t acting as if I did.

“I’m sorry,” I finally said. “I never meant for any of this mess to happen the way it has. You have every right to be involved in their lives if that’s what you want. And to be honest, I’m grateful you’re here and that you care so much about them.”

After a moment, he said, “I care about you, too. I am not good with emotions and words but I want you to know how I feel. Perhaps because I never told you is the reason you could not be honest with me.”

It would have been so easy to end things there and let him take the blame but I couldn’t do that. This wasn’t his fault. No, he never flat out said he loved me, still, I knew he did just the same.

“You’re right. Something I thought horrible happened and instead of telling you about it, I did push you away. But it wasn’t your fault – not even a little. I was scared and I ran away. The reason, I told myself, was for you. I didn’t think you should have to deal with this. Until now, that’s what I maintained. That’s only partly true, though. I think part of it was that I didn’t want to deal with it. I wanted to ignore it and pretend it wasn’t happening.”

“That is not rational.”

“You’re telling me!” I laughed, despite the turmoil of it all. “When I decide to mess something up, I do the best job I can.”

He laughed a little and looked into my eyes. “Whatever happens, Marty, please, do not keep me at arm’s length. If we cannot have a relationship, I am heartbroken, but I will not push you. But let me be a part of the little ones’ lives.”

“I’m sorry I broke your heart. I wish more than anything I could take it all back and do it differently.”


With gentle hands, he pulled me into his arms, rubbing my shoulder and putting his face near mine.

“We are here now and that is the important thing.”

“I’m trying.”

“Yes, very trying,” he chuckled.


Sighing with contentment, I felt his lips at my ear and the warmth of his breath as he whispered, “I love you and I always will.”

I tried to gulp away the lump that was forming in my throat. It was the first time in my life any man had ever said that to me and meant it. The old me wouldn’t have taken this very well and might even have been skeptical. Past heartbreaks had left me feeling as if no one could ever truly love me.

Yet, I knew this was real. And it was being expressed to me by the only person I wanted to hear it from.

As if on cue, the babies began to cry.


Xalen joined me with a big grin on his face. “Time for diaper changings and feedings!”

He was really too zealous about this whole thing but I grinned back at him despite myself. “We just did this less than three hours ago!”


“Isn’t it great?”

I laughed now. “Yeah, it kind of is, especially with you here doing all of this with me.”

I didn’t wait for him to respond. Instead, I pulled him toward me and kissed him with all the passion someone in my condition could muster.


As the kiss lingered, it seemed like the pieces were falling together for once. Now, if I could just stay out of my own way!


Three in the morning and a baby in my arms. Who would have thought?

Holden’s warm little body pressed against my shoulder surprisingly felt like the most natural thing in the world. He was a good baby and after his feeding, he fell asleep easily.


Rosetta, on the other hand, was always wide awake but it seemed to me Xalen didn’t mind one bit.

“She has the cutest little nose,” he smiled.


I didn’t know exactly how Xalen and I would work out or what the future held. What I did know was thatΒ we were a strange family, dysfunctional at best, but we were a family. And it was mine.


Author’s Note:Β Rosetta is, of course, named after the Rosetta Stone. LOL

I wanted to point out something about the newspaper clipping…. please ignore the date. I forgot to fill it in and so it displayed the default. Grrr….

And now we are halfway through Marty’s story! Now that the twins are here, Marty can get back to working on her Lifetime Wish of physical perfection. She is closer to achieving this than I thought! Woot!

So, what’s next for our heir? The Neptune Foundation! Double woot! lol This is actually the part of the story I’ve been looking forward to the most. You are going to find out a lot about Xalen and how Marty fits in, too. πŸ˜€ I hope you like it.

On a side note: You may have noticed that I have moved things around a little. This is because while Noble Doubt is the main story and has a long way to go before it’s finished, I’m thinking ahead to when that time comes. So, I changed the name of the site to match my url and added other stories I’m working on. Take a look under the “About” tab! There is a new blogroll where I’ve added site badges/buttons. If you would like your badge to appear there, send me the url or leave me a comment where I can find it. πŸ™‚Β 


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loladiamond01 December 30, 2017 - 10:13 am

Ah, the vault babies are there, lol!
Well, Xalen is super caring and I’m very glad Marty has such a supportive person by her side. And I definitely don’t envy Marty the post-labor pain, I bet this is huge, even if I never had a baby, but I heard that when they sew you wrong, it can hurt for a long time and mess up with your vagina badly. Uh, I can’t even imagine! But she has already two, this means that she doesn’t have to have more for the baby to have a sibling. And right now, I guess more babies is the last thing she’d think of. Poor Marty! But no so poor all the same, because Xalen is there as a super hero daddy! I hope they get married and live their happy ever after!!! πŸ˜€

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:01 pm

Thank you, Jowita. πŸ™‚ Xalen is really loving toward those babies in game. Marty really is lucky.

I based what was happening on Marty after what I was thinking after having my first child. I was horrified by all the changes. hahaha πŸ˜›

You’re right that because they have two, there is no pressure to have more. I’m so glad, too, because after Blue had six, I’m ready for only two now. hahaha

Xalen the super hero daddy! I love that! Maybe he’ll propose now. πŸ˜€

audreyfld December 30, 2017 - 10:23 am

Vault babies. πŸ˜‚ I have a suspicion that we haven’t seen the last of the artifacts in the vault.

And yay for them finally being together. ❀️I am glad Xalen finally said the words out loud for her. I hope they are Xalen’s kids just because….but if not it won’t matter to him. But it I’ll allow Marty to completely put that in the past.

The picture of the babies reaching for each other was so sweet and so true of twins.

So ready for their next adventure!

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:05 pm

Thank you, Audrey πŸ˜€ You just might be right about those artifacts! Can you believe Marty was asking about one while in labor? LOL

I’m glad Xalen said the words out loud for her, too. <3 You're right about if they are Xalen's, or not; he will love them just the same.

I can't wait for their future! πŸ™‚

NotJustaBook December 30, 2017 - 10:37 am

Oh no, all the ‘vault babies’ talk makes me think of Fallout. Thankfully, these two will grow up in a much nicer environment than that πŸ˜›
Anyway, this was a really sweet chapter. It’s lovely how Xalen is just stepping up without hesitation πŸ™‚ As always – looking forward to the next one!

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:09 pm

Thank you, Louise πŸ™‚ OMG, yes, Fallout! It’s a good thing we’re not in Fallout. lol

I’m so glad you enjoyed the chapter. I love how Xalen is with the babies in game. It sure does help Marty out a lot.

sempreviva December 30, 2017 - 10:46 am

Xalen is a sweetheart, and I’m so glad Marty warmed up to him again <3 I ship them so much, it's crazy!
The vault babies are here!! Finally! I love their names, especially Rosetta <3 I'm sure she'll be a beauty when she grows up! They've already got such a strong bond, I loved the picture where they reached out to each other! Will we learn who the father is soon? πŸ™‚

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:12 pm

Thank you so much πŸ™‚ I’m glad things are better with Xalen and Marty, too. And I’m even happier you ship them so much! πŸ˜€

The vault babies have arrived! lol I’ve been really good about not peeking ahead in CAS to see what they look like. I’m so tempted, though!

Yes, you will learn who the father is very, very soon. I think it’s the chapter after the next one. πŸ˜€

sempreviva December 31, 2017 - 3:51 am

Well, with parents like Marty and Xalen *or* Beckett, I’m sure they’ll be super good looking! <3 All three of them are, lol!

RosemaryMarie December 31, 2017 - 8:40 am

LOL I hope so. πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

Jes2G December 30, 2017 - 11:01 am

Yes, girl, PLEASE stay out of your own way! And yay for getting into this Neptune business! I knew Xalen would be supportive, but it’s so cool to see him so giddy about the babies and future family life. One thing I notice about men is that they often say they don’t want children or a settled life, but when it happens, it’s like the best thing ever. They don’t know what they want LOL.

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:16 pm

LOL! Right? She causes most of her own problems, that’s for sure.

Xalen is totally giddy! hahaha I’m still laughing at what you said about men! LOLOLOL

Jes2G December 30, 2017 - 8:19 pm


bmitjessesue December 30, 2017 - 11:01 am

Fabulous chapter as always. That smoke is suspicious though and I’m excited to see what comes next. I’m sorry, I’m on the run and can’t say more!

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:17 pm

Thank you, Bee πŸ™‚ I’m so glad you could stop by! πŸ˜€ I can’t wait to submit my next chapter to you. πŸ˜€

joliesattic December 30, 2017 - 11:20 am

All of the above.

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:17 pm

LOL! Right on! πŸ˜€ Thank you, Jolie <3

cathytea December 30, 2017 - 12:36 pm

This is so lovely ! I really like the richness of completion that carries through this chapter .

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:20 pm

Thank you so much, Cathy! πŸ™‚ I love your comment. You are so kind.

maidenlissasims December 30, 2017 - 1:29 pm

Yay! Babies!!! I can’t wait for the next one!

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:20 pm

Thank you so much! πŸ˜€ YAY to vault babies! <3

Rosie December 30, 2017 - 1:54 pm

Oh man, Marty is one resilient woman to have those babies natural in a bank with just Xalen to help her! Then again, I always knew she was tough. Anyway, thinking about it now, this family is kind of strange! If those babies are Beckett’s and Marty marries Xalen, he’ll be their great uncle AND their step-dad. XD

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:22 pm

Thank you, Rosie πŸ™‚ OMG, isn’t she resilient, though? LOL What a nightmare.

Oh yeah, now that you’ve typed it all out, the family looks even stranger than I first thought! Yikes. LOL

lisabeesims December 30, 2017 - 2:38 pm

Such an amazingly beautiful update .. wonderful all the way around. They are FAB parents and I cannot wait to see what these little will get into!

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:24 pm

Thank you, Lisa πŸ™‚ I’m so glad you liked the update. I think they are pretty good parents, too. At least so far. LOL

lisabeesims December 30, 2017 - 8:31 pm

Oh they will be … no doubt

twinsimskeletons December 30, 2017 - 3:13 pm

Aaaah that makes sense – much better than a robbery! I like the newspaper clipping too. Nice touch and it read pretty much like an article too!
The twins’ names are cute. I’m very glad Xalen is going to stay in their lives (not that I was expecting any differently) and really excited to hear what his work is really about!

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:26 pm

Thank you so much! πŸ˜€ I’m so glad you like the newspaper clipping. That was a last minute addition and less that Marty had to explain. LOL

I can’t wait for you to find out more about Xalen’s work!

Violincat December 30, 2017 - 3:49 pm

In the future…
Kids: Mom, tell us about how we were born.
Marty: Well, I had to go to the bank…
I’m just glad Xalen is 100% there now.

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:28 pm

Thank you, Violincat! πŸ˜€ LMAO! Now, that is funny! πŸ˜€

I’m glad about Xalen, too.

Simsophonique December 30, 2017 - 5:58 pm

Glad everything works the best they could, communication is important for a couple I hope they’ll both continue in that way. Xalen seems to be caring and a wonderful man.

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 8:47 pm

Thank you πŸ™‚ You’re so right about communication. I hope they continue that way, too. You should see Xalen in game. He really loves these kids. πŸ˜€

Simsophonique December 31, 2017 - 5:36 pm

A true doting father sounds be nice to see ^^ hΓ©hΓ© . Does he has the trait nutruning? ha I don’t know how the English name of caring/loving children. In French it’s Confortable with Children.

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 9:58 am

That is lovely. πŸ™‚ Yes, Xalen does have the nurturing trait. I can’t remember all of his traits offhand and would have to go in game to see them. lol But I do know he has nurturing as one.

Simsophonique January 5, 2018 - 2:05 pm

That’s the reason why he’s crazy about the twins and he was too much protective with Marty when she gaves birth.

RosemaryMarie January 5, 2018 - 2:33 pm

Excellent point! You are very right about that. πŸ˜€

Simsophonique January 5, 2018 - 4:50 pm

I know sims 3 behaviour well I got more than a hundred of sims in my SV.

RosemaryMarie January 6, 2018 - 10:26 am

Wow! I think that’s really cool!

Simsophonique January 6, 2018 - 1:36 pm

It is and sometimes they are always surprising.

RosemaryMarie January 7, 2018 - 1:44 pm

I love how surprising the simmies can be πŸ˜€

Simsophonique January 7, 2018 - 2:01 pm

Me too !

raymondsanti December 30, 2017 - 7:00 pm

Happy (almost) new year! Holden and Rosetta are wonderful and unique names! I can’t wait to see who their father is and what they grow up to be like. So glad Xalen is staying πŸ™‚

RosemaryMarie December 30, 2017 - 9:05 pm

Thank you, Raymond! πŸ˜€ I’m so glad you like their names. I also can’t wait until everything is known and we see what the twins grow up to be like. πŸ™‚

Lila Remonn December 31, 2017 - 2:31 am

Babies babies babies! πŸ™‚
Holden and Rosetta are so cute, and I really love their names- I thought of the Rosetta Stone as soon as her name was introduced! I still can’t believe Marty managed to give birth in that locked bank vault. It sounds like an absolute nightmare, but props to her for pulling through!
I’m also glad that Marty and Xalen finally talked about the situation. He will definitely be an excellent father regardless if they are his biological children or not. I do hope they are Xalen’s, because I feel Beckett would stir up trouble if he found out they were his own kiddos.
Great chapter, and Happy New Year right back at you! <3

RosemaryMarie December 31, 2017 - 8:38 am

Thank you so much, Lila. πŸ™‚ I’m so glad you like the babies’ names. And it’s cool you thought of the Rosetta Stone! I’m sure the vault was a nightmare, as you said. I can’t even imagine giving birth in those conditions. lol

I’m glad Marty and Xalen have talked, too. I think he’ll be a really good dad, too.

brenda mc bride December 31, 2017 - 7:00 am

Great episode! The twins names are perfect. I’m so glad Marty is finally accepting Xalen as part of her life and family.

RosemaryMarie December 31, 2017 - 8:41 am

Thank you so much, Brenda! πŸ™‚ I’m really glad about that, too. It’s been super difficult to keep them away from each other in game! haha

magpie14031983 December 31, 2017 - 9:55 am

Aaaaawwww the vbs are too adorable for words! Glad it was a false alarm. I was having nightmares about masked gangsters busting into the vault mid birth!

I love these two together and I really hope the HoRo twins are Xalen’s. (HoRo pronounced sort of like BoHo with a bit of Scooby-Doo thrown in for good luck lol)

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 9:52 am

LOLOL! RoHo with the Scooby! Perfect! LOL

I’m so glad you love this couple. You’ll find out really soon if they are Xalen’s or not.

magpie14031983 January 4, 2018 - 11:02 am

I’m glad you like my RoHo 😁 it was originally HoRo which is what made me think of Scooby and then his version of uh-oh and thus RoHo was born lol

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 11:39 am

LOL Brilliant! I can hear Scooby saying that in my head now. LOL

magpie14031983 January 6, 2018 - 1:46 pm

And my work here is done 😁😁😁😁

RosemaryMarie January 7, 2018 - 1:51 pm

LMAO! πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

America On Coffee December 31, 2017 - 12:23 pm

I never would have thought a bank vault etc… Exciting and beautiful but no more Susan and her response to the babies and all . Season’s greetings and Happy New Year!

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 9:55 am

Thank you so much! πŸ˜€ I hope you had a wonderful holiday and that 2018 finds you blessed and full of joy.

I’m afraid I couldn’t fit Susan in which is unfortunate as I would have liked to. The great thing is that the entire family will be together very soon and they will all meet the twins. πŸ˜€

MichaelStephenWills December 31, 2017 - 12:40 pm

Happy New Year., RosemaryMarie..It was a pleasure getting to know you in 2017. Looking forward to 2018.

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 9:56 am

Thank you so much and a Happy New Year to you. I hope the new year finds you happy and well. πŸ™‚

socallucyfan January 1, 2018 - 6:21 pm

Awe…the babies are too cute. They have such cute and unique names. I love it.
I can’t believe that we are half way through the generation, it feels like it as gone by so fast. Xalen is so sweet and wonderful, and perfect for Marty. I love her little family!! <3 <3

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 10:00 am

Thank you so much! I’m sorry I’m answering so late. Our internet went out on Sunday and I just got it back this morning.

I feel like the generation has gone by really fast, too. I love her little family, too. πŸ™‚ <3

I hope you had a lovely holiday and that the new year is full of joy. <3

socallucyfan January 4, 2018 - 3:19 pm

I was starting to get a bit worried since you usually respond so fast, but I’m glad that you are okay. Going that long without internet would be torture for me.
But the most important thing is that everyone is okay and that you had a safe and happy holiday season.

RosemaryMarie January 5, 2018 - 2:31 pm

Thank you. πŸ™‚ And, guess what? My internet went out again. lol But I am back. (Hopefully, for good.)

I hope you had a wonderful holiday, too. <3

abetterman21 January 2, 2018 - 2:18 am

Happy new year to you!

RosemaryMarie January 4, 2018 - 11:55 pm

Thank you so much! My internet was out or I would have answered you sooner. πŸ™‚ I hope you had a lovely holiday and that the new year treats you well.

heatherfeather19 January 4, 2018 - 7:20 pm

Lol, I love that she was noticing the artifact even while in labor!

That was so awful for Marty, though! She had twins without any medical assistance! She must be proud. At least Xalen was some help.

I hope they can get a chance to talk a little more, but Marty and Xalen are so happy to be together again, it’s so sweet. <3

RosemaryMarie January 5, 2018 - 2:32 pm

Thank you so much πŸ™‚ Marty, bless her heart, can’t help but notice all strange artifacts, even when in labor. haha

I’m glad you like Marty and Xalen and their little family. I have a feeling they’ll be doing a lot of talking very soon. lol

sensationaltragedy January 13, 2018 - 2:42 am

I’m happy for Marty and Xalen, they’re going to be a family, no matter how weird and awkward things get. I can’t wait for everyone to meet the babies! Everyone is going to throw a fit because Marty didn’t tell them. I hope Susan finds love soon though, she’s always been the precious baby so I want things to work out for her more than anything, especially considering the circumstances.


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