Chapter 3.27: Dear Diary, the Compromise

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Dear Diary, Matthieu and I fretted over what to do and couldn’t seem to find common ground no matter how hard we tried. It was difficult not to let this put a little rift between us. My old self would have dug in her heels and demanded her own way. But she also would have lost her husband.

Thank goodness, I’m not like that anymore! As selfish as I feel IΒ need to be for Marty’s sake, when it comes right down to it, I understand that Matthew and the children have never known any other life. I think, for the most part, the children could adjust even if they were to drag their feet because they’ve been on trips with my parents.

They’ve seen microwaves and television sets. Most of them were so happy to use washing machines and dryers, too, and to have hot water whenever they pleased.

But dear, sweet Matthieu… he just would feel so out of place. Was it even fair to ask him to leave the island?

We sat on the couch together. Almost immediately, our hands linked and he tenderly touched my face.

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At the same time, we both said:

Him: “We should move off the island.”
Me: “We’re going to stay on the island.”

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We stared at each other for a moment, the gentleness and tears in our eyes conveying the love we had for one another.

I have a suspicion that we were thinking the same things. That we were both very fortunate to love someone who would give everything up for the other.

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It was he who broke the silence. “Blue, I don’t know what to say. It’s not fair to you or Marty to stay here.”

Shaking my head, I said, “It’s not fair to you and the other children to make you leave either.”

“Are we back where we began then?”

For a moment, I chewed on my lower lip. There had to be a compromise somewhere. There just had to be!

“What if,” I began, “Marty can wear her new clothes as long as she is home? If she leaves to go somewhere, she follows the dress code?”

“Yeah, that might work,” he mumbled.

Narrowing my eyes at him, I said, “Do you have another idea?”

“A while back, I, uh, heard some advice given to someone else and I think it might be something we should do.”

“Oh? Well, spill it.”

“A trip – uh, a vacation.”

I couldn’t stop my eyes from lighting up. “A vacation?”

“Yes. Maybe it would be good to get away for a while. Harvesting is done and perhaps Leo Jr. could look after the place and take in our animals.”

“Where should we go?”

He winked at me and said, “I think that’s more your department.”

I took some deep breaths to keep my heart in my chest where it belonged. “I’ll arrange everything!”

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As we stood up, he pulled me into his arms and our lips met in one of those delicious kisses we always shared. The kind where you forget everything around you and your lips tingle.

“I love you, darlin’,” he murmured into my ear.

“I love you, too,” I sighed.

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The next day was Susan’s birthday. It was a bittersweet moment for me, seeing my youngest entering her teen years. Don’t tell anyone, but there are tears in the cake.

Susan was really into it, waving her party favor about and hopping from one foot to another like a little bird.

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When the moment came, I was amazed at how much she looked like me. If she had green eyes, she would have been a dead ringer.

(On a side note, I kept wondering where her blue eyes came from. Daddy and I had green eyes. Later when I was alone before writing this entry, I flipped through Daddy’s diary. That’s when I remembered that my biological mom had blue eyes and so did daddy’s twin sister Jilly. I didn’t linger there long because I didn’t want to think about my mother Chrissy or the pain Daddy went through when his twin died.)

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As I was clearing up after the party, Alice came outside to help me. But, as it turns out, she had something on her mind.

“Blue, I hate to ask you this, but may I stay here for a while?”

Stopping in my tracks, I stared at her, my mouth gaping for a moment. “Of course, but what is wrong?”

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“I quit my job at the St. Cyrs. After the way you and your parents were treated the other day, I couldn’t stay.” Tears filled her eyes and dripped onto her cheeks, making zigzagged trails to her chin.

Putting the dirty dishes back onto the table, I took her in my arms and hugged her. “Oh, Alice, you shouldn’t have done that. We’ll be okay and we’re not the only ones in Winchester to have had a nasty moment being corrected by the St. Cyrs.”

Wiping her face with her apron, her mouth curved into a slight smile. “I know, but I really love your children. I’m never going to have any of my own, nor do I want to. I can’t stand being around that Laci and I will not stand by and condone how she spoke to you and your family.”

“The children really love you, too. We all do very much. You’re my dearest friend. I just hate to think you’ve done this on my account.”

“I was thinking, actually, this could give me a chance to do my healing and midwiving full time.”

“There certainly is a need for it, that much is for sure.” Taking a napkin from the table, I helped her dry her eyes again. “You can stay here as long as you like. I’m sure Matthieu would say the same.”

“Thank you, Blue, it means a lot.”

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I put some sheets and blankets on the cot in the front room for Alice while Matt rounded all the kids up before bed. We needed to tell them about our plan.

Briefly, we explained to them that because of the island’s dress code, we’d decided Marty could only wear her new clothing at home and nowhere else. We decided to leave out the unpleasantness about Laci and Agathe since it would do them no good to know about that.

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Marty stared at us, a stricken look on her face. “My grandparents gave me these clothes, so how can that be wrong?”

“It isn’t wrong… in the world outside of this community.” I decided to address this because I didn’t want my husband to come off as the bad guy, since he wasn’t. The children knew I wasn’t from here originally, so they may expect me to be laxer in the rules. “But we live here right now and, as you know, we dress a certain way for a reason.”

“It’s the rules,” Charles said. “We live differently because we don’t like how the outside world conducts themselves.”

“It’s more that we want to preserve our way of life, son,” Matthieu said. “I know some of you will agree with me and some of you won’t. And that’s okay. We dress the same as everyone else because the clothing in the outside world can create problems we don’t want here.”

“But how?” Susan asked. “I think Marty’s clothes are beautiful.”

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“I don’t,” Carrie said.

“I’ll tell you something that may help you understand,” I ventured. “When I was a young girl, we wore uniforms to school for much the same reason we all dress the same here. Where I grew up, if you didn’t wear the ‘right’ clothes, other children would make fun of you or exclude you from their activities.”

Lissie’s nose scrunched up and she said, “What are the ‘right’ clothes?”

“The clothing on the mainland is all produced by different companies. Some clothing, made by more prestigious companies, is more costly. So, children often want the more expensive clothing. Then it becomes a competition to see who has the best clothes and if you’re a child whose parents can’t afford what the other kids wear, you’re sometimes treated differently. Often times, a child’s parents can afford it, but don’t think they should spend that much money on the item. Which is perfectly reasonable.”

“That doesn’t seem very smart,” Laurent said.

“In a lot of ways, it’s not very smart at all,” I agreed. “But it’s a different life. I love the world I came from, but I love this world more.”

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“Marty should get rid of her new clothes,” Charles said.

“What?” Marty yelled. “No!”

“No, no, no,” Matthieu smiled.

“Your father is right. It’s nice to get something new once in a while and there is nothing wrong with that. The point is, there is a time and a place for these things.”

“We’ve actually gone way off track, though,” Matt said. “Guess what? We are going on a vacation!”

During the next half hour, we ended up having to explain what a vacation was. Until then, I’d just assumed the kids knew this stuff already.

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More than the others, Lissie seemed to ponder the thought of leaving the island for an extended amount of time. “Will we wear new clothes and meet new people?”

“Only if you’d like to,” I said in my best Leo Capra reassuring voice. (He was always so good at that!) “I’m sure we’ll all have a lot of adventures and it will be fun.”

Smiling a little, she said, “I think I like this idea!”

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Her twin Carrie looked from her to us and back again. “I don’t want to go, but Lissie isn’t going without me.”

As is typical with Carrie, she doesn’t much cotton to change, but once she experiences something new, she usually warms to it.

Once everyone seemed to be on board with the idea of leaving the island for a while, I started right away in making plans. Over the next few days, I took the ferry to the mainland to call Daddy and Leela and make arrangements.

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Barely able to contain my excitement, I also spoke with my brother. Matthieu had already talked to him about the farm and animals, so that was one thing I didn’t have to arrange.

“I think it will be good for Theo to have some extra responsibilities,” he agreed.

“As for the house, chickens and cows, Alice will be staying here and has said she can manage that.”

“So, what are the big plans?”

Grinning from ear to ear, I laid it on him. “We’re going to the villa in Monte Vista!”

Our parents owned the villa which was situated near a vineyard which they also owned. They weren’t much for wine making, but they rented the land out to a local resident who had a wine business. An elderly couple had a small apartment in the house off of the exercise room. They took care of the house and grounds since my parents were rarely there these days. Daddy had arranged to give them some time off so they wouldn’t be there when we were. It was a bright and sprawling place that I knew the family would enjoy.

After whistling, Leo Jr. said, “That’s going to be a blast!”

“I think so, too,” I gushed. “I figured it was the best choice since life is slower paced there and there’s a lot of country, too. Laurent and Susan will love the architecture and history.”

“There’s a nice garden there for Matthieu,” Leo smiled. “But try to get him to do something else besides that.”

Laughing, I could imagine it now. I would want to do something fun and Matt would be working in the garden. His idea of fun was about to change, I told myself.

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“Do you think this is what you guys need then? I mean, once you get back, the same problem will be here.”

My brother… always grounded in reality. “I think it will give us the break we need to see things from a new perspective when we get back.”

“Yeah, that seems likely. I guess what I really wondered is if you were hoping the family would like it so much, they’d want to stay?”

“I can’t ever seem to hide anything from you,” I sighed. “I’ll admit, the thought did cross my mind. But when it comes down to it, if that doesn’t happen, it’s okay.”

He snorted.

“No really! I chose to make my life here because I wanted to. I could just as easily have gone back to where I came from and made a life there, too. But I didn’t because this is where I belong. This is home.”

Smiling at me, he said, “I know what you mean.”

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Susan joined me as I began to walk back to the house. Since her birthday, she’d been rather mopey and quiet. When I tried to find out what the trouble was, she shrugged and told me ‘nothing.’ Perhaps now, she was ready to tell me.

Greeting her with an easy smile, I said, “Your chores are done bright and early!”

“Yes, Momma.”

When she didn’t say anything else, I said, “What do you say we make some apple pies today? Doesn’t that sound good?”

“I’d rather not.”

“But you love to bake. Won’t you tell me what’s bothering you?”

Tears welled up in her crystal blue eyes, making them look even bluer than they were. “I’m fat, Momma.”

“What?” I gasped, touching her arm. “Why would you say such a thing?”

“Look at me!” she sobbed. “Everyone says so! I can hear them whispering when I’m around.”

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My heart breaking in two, I embraced her, patting her on the back. “Who is everyone?”

After her sobbing subsided some, she said, “All the kids. I’m just going to stay home and never go anywhere again.”

“Do your brothers and sisters tease you about this?”

She shook her head. “No. Momma, why are they so skinny and beautiful and I’m so ugly and fat?”

Gripping her arms tightly, I looked into her eyes and firmly said, “You are not ugly and fat. Did you know that every one of your sisters has had something they’ve needed reassurances about?”

Shaking her head again, I could tell she was listening. I didn’t think it was right to tell her what her siblings were self-conscious about, so I skirted around that part.

“Well, they have. Being a teenager is not easy for anyone. Even if someone seems perfect on the outside, they are far from it and have things they don’t like or wish was different. Do you know what I’ve told every one of your sisters?”

“What?”

“You are exactly the person you are supposed to be and I love you.”

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“I love you, too, but that won’t make me skinny,” she laughed.

This was a perfect example of what I loved about Susan. Even when she felt like she was in the depths of despair, she could laugh and put a smile on her face. She was a trooper if ever there was one.

Laughing also, I said, “I think it’s too hot today for pies.”

“We could slice some fruit.”

“Perfect!” I said.

 

Author’s Note:Β I would like to thank my good friend Bee (Poses by Bee) for making the pose I used with Matt and Blue in the first few pictures. Her poses are so detailed and just perfect! If you haven’t checked out or downloaded her poses, you should. πŸ˜€Β 

46 thoughts

  1. Blue and Matthieu got such a good compromise that seems just about like a perfect solution. I’m so happy they are going to Monte Vista. I have holidays in plans for the next week’s chapter as well πŸ™‚
    No, no, Susan! You are such a pretty girl, no need

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    1. Thank you, Jowita! πŸ™‚ I thought it was the best compromise for the situation. And I thought Monte Vista would be good since life is slower there. Monte Vista can be kind of boring but I like how stable that world is. This will also give me a chance to focus on the girls because they are all going to react in specific ways. πŸ˜€

      And I agree about Susan! ❀

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  2. That pose looked so much better on your sims I have to say! It just looks so natural and perfect for Matt and Blue, they look like real people almost!

    Staying within the community was the right decision to make I believe. Although it would be understandable, if not every child was happy with the current restrictions in their life. I only hope that after their vacation, more children don’t come back with rose coloured glasses about the grass being greener on the other side.

    Susan is beautiful, slightly chubby cheeks and all. It wasn’t till recently it occurred to me that child sims about to go thru the transition would be anxious about how they would look after. It makes total sense that they would.

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    1. Thank you, Bee! πŸ™‚ I love that pose so much. Thank you again for making it for me on such short notice!

      I’m glad you think they made the right decision to stay. That’s a good point about the kids. I wonder how many will want to leave, how many will stay and which ones, after they’ve left will go back?

      I think Susan is beautiful, too. In game, she has lost some of the chubbiness in her cheeks. She likes to swim and use the treadmill of her own accord. You will see the difference in the next chapter.

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  3. Great chapter! I am glad they were able to reach that compromise, and I started to say “easily”, but, obviously it was not! I think this vacation may even help reinforce Blue’s desire to stay on the island. I know I would miss the electricity the most, but it would be great if one of the children learned an eco-friendly way of making electricity available on the island. These kids are certainly bright enough to do that! It would give Laci a heart attack, but it would make all of their lives so much more productive, not just “easier”! Got off track there…sorry!! lol I am Susan, have been almost all my life, poor baby. I saw how much she resembled Blue, then automatically saw her chubbier cheeks, of course. She doesn’t look “fat”, however, not to me, anyway! The part about the blue eyes was interesting! I forgot about Christy having blue eyes, and Jilly, too! I am really looking forward to their vacation, and seeing what Blue does to get Matthieu out of his rut! Lots of info…great chapter! β™₯

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    1. Thank you, Marj πŸ™‚ I think you’re right about the trip reinforcing Blue’s desire to stay on the island. I think that’s a good point. Another good point you made was about the electricity for the island. I wonder how Laci and Agathe would take that? haha They should try it, though!

      When I saw Susan’s cheeks and how much she likes the treadmill and swimming, I thought being self-conscious fit in with her story.

      i’m glad you liked the part about the eyes. πŸ™‚ i’m looking forward to their vacation, too.

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  4. I knew it, Laci is already alienating people. It’s a matter of time before others get annoyed with her.
    I’m glad the family is doing this vacation. It will certainly be a good trial run for them in the outside world.

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    1. Yes! You called it regarding Laci. I can’t imagine living in the same house with her. Bet her little sister is having fun. Not! lol

      I’m glad the family is going on this vacation, too. I think it will give them the break from things they need.

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    1. That’s so sweet. I think Susan is lovely, too. I also think you’re right about this vacation, too. It might just be enough to clear their heads so they can go home and look at things in a better light. πŸ™‚

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  5. Everyone keeps mentioning the treadmill. Did I miss something? I didn’t think Susan looked fat at all. Bless her heart though. When I was young, my sister was slightly heavier than most and I did (shamefully)torment her about that.
    I’m getting my people mixed up here. I think I got Alice and Agathe mixed up, but Alice is Leo Jr.’s wife, no? Why would she have to move in with them? Did she live with Agathe and Laci? I’m confused. I’m going to go back some and see if I can figure these out. LOL

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    1. Oh! I mentioned the treadmill. You didn’t miss anything. See, when you’re playing the game, you can let your sims have complete autonomy all the way down to no autonomy. I always let mine do what they want. Well, usually, anyway. And Susan always likes to workout. So, I was just saying that when I saw her chubby cheeks and saw her slim down a little because she’s always swimming or on the treadmill, I thought I’d put these things in the story. I haven’t actually shown her on the treadmill yet. Honestly, I don’t think she looked fat either, but I thought she might be self-conscious about it anyway.

      There are so many characters, I’m not surprised they are getting mixed up. If you look up top on this site, you will see a tab that says “Characters.” A menu will dropdown and then you could click on Generation 3. There, I have all of the characters pictures and who they are. Although, I’ll explain here, too.

      Leo Jr.’s wife is Wilda. Alice is Blue’s best friend who works at the St. Cyr farm as their cook. She is the one who took Blue under her wing when Blue first got there. πŸ™‚ I hope this helps.

      I’m hoping to keep my cast of characters smaller in the next generation. lol

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      1. Thank you I will look that up since I figured out she was her best friend but didn’t remember when when showed up. I had re read several episodes. But, I hadn’t remembered seeing anything of the treadmill since I don’t do the sims. Which sim program do you use? I think I’m one of the few that doesn’t have a sim program. LOL

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        1. They’re really so much fun. They can be so goofy and fun to watch. lol I play Sims 2, 3 and 4, but for this story, I use The Sims 3.

          I love Sims 3 the best, but it can be glitchy at times. For me, it’s worth it. Other people prefer Sims 4 because it is more stable. πŸ˜€

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  6. Hm, Monte Vista, as a small rural community, could be a good compromise. Keep the good parts of the island, but incorporate the good parts from off-island. A community is important only if you don’t have the strength of convictions to go it on your own. Bringing the good of the island to the greater world rather than keeping isolated could be a win-win situation. Being able to come and go to and from the island is also a win-win situation. I do hope Carrie loosens up a bit as she sees the world around her. Close-minded thoughts are so constricting! Preservation of history is good, but letting go of out-dated reasoning is also good. Keep the good parts of the past, but also incorporate the good of the present .

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    1. I really love how you worded this, ciane. You are always so wise. I just really couldn’t have said it any better!

      I can see the win-win situations and am so glad you brought them up. Also, I hope that Carrie will become more open minded, too.

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  7. Oh, Laci, burning bridges already. But I can’t help but think Agatha was like that as well, years ago when she was still young and new at it all. And she’s a damn fine leader now. Laci needs to gain experience, though. That’s the only thing that’ll help the situation.
    What did I tell you! Blue & Matt, working through things! That pose is absolutely gorgeous! Full of tenderness and determination! ;_; They’re my favorite couple ever! ❀ I'm glad they came to a compromise.
    Monte Vista sounds perfect! It's old and slower, a good first step into the modern world. And it's got a garden! Perfect for Matt when he feels like things are getting a bit too much. I'm excited to learn more about the kids as they enter this new world!
    Oh, Susan, you're lovely! Blue was also a tad chubby in the cheeks as a teenager and she grew up beautifully! Besides, you've got the loveliest smile & a heart of gold, Susan! It don't get much better than that! πŸ™‚

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    1. Yes, good ol’ Laci. haha And you know what? You are exactly right about Agathe. In a way, I think Agathe figures that Laci will loosen up over time, but perhaps she needs to step in anyway. She might, actually, considering Alice just quit. I mean, I wouldn’t want to lose Alice.

      I’m so glad you love Matt and Blue. I really do, too. They are always all over each other in game. hahahaha When I told Bee that I needed a tender pose of a couple sitting on a couch, she came up with the perfect thing!

      I agree with what you said about Monte Vista. It just seemed like the right place for them. I’m excited about seeing how the kids cope in this world, too!

      You are so right about Susan and Blue’s cheeks, too. haha She had to kind of grow into her features.

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  8. “Don’t tell anyone, but there are tears in the cake.” I laughed! I’m sure Susan aging up was tough for Blue, and on top of everything else?! This family’s had it rough for a little while, but hopefully good things will come from this trip! All their kids are stunning! Stunn-ing! Do I smell a boyfriend for Marty in Monte Vista????? πŸ˜‰

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  9. Poor Susan got the raw deal and looks like her grandma Chrissy the poor girl.
    A vacation is JUST what this family needs right now. Time to clear their heads and time to think clearly without all the negative Laci crap ringing in their ears constantly.

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    1. Thank you, Lil. πŸ™‚ LOL about Susan’s looks. I guess she does look a lot like Chrissy. I always thought Blue did, too.

      I agree 100% about them needing a vacay. Hopefully, it will do the trick.

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  10. I like the compromise, I think Monte Vista will be a great place to take a vacation because it isn’t that modern. I can’t wait to see what fun they have there. And ahhh Susan! I’m sad she feels that way, I didn’t think she was really that fat at all. But I like how Blue comforted her πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you, Lila. πŸ™‚ I’m glad you like their compromise. I, too, thought Monte Vista would be the least traumatic for Matt. hahaha And yes! Fun is in store! πŸ˜€

      I was sad about Susan, too, and I could just see her as if she were real and a new teen, feeling all self-conscious. I think we’re going to learn a lot more about her and the other girls as they take their trip. πŸ™‚

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  11. I’m so glad they found a compromise. I don’t see why anyone would be against Marty wearing her new favorite clothes around the house…besides her sister, Carrie. But Carrie will get over it! XD Anyway, I’m excited to see all of them on vacation. I don’t think the world is ready for this crazy family.

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    1. Thank you, Rosie. πŸ™‚ I agree that Carrie will get over it. To the point, actually, that she may surprise you. haha I’m excited to see them on vacation, too. I love what you said about the crazy family! haha

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  12. I am glad that cooler heads prevailed and they were able to reach a compromise (at least for now).
    Monte Vista is one of my favorite worlds. They are going to have so much fun.
    When I saw Susan the first thing I though of how much she looked like Jilly.

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    1. I’m glad about the compromise, too. I couldn’t really see the family splitting up over this. I am really having fun in Monte Vista and can’t wait to show you what’s been happening there.

      BTW, someone else said that, too, about Susan and Jilly! πŸ˜€ I wonder what Leo will think? :O

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      1. I really like Susan. Not just because she reminds me of Jilly. But she seems to have inherited the best qualities from both her parents equally. Some children are more Matt, while the others are more Blue. Susan is exactly 50/50.
        This heir vote is going to be tough!

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  13. I can’t wait to see how everyone reacts to the vacation! It’s going to be so fun! Poor Susan! Blue handled her well. I guess we will get to know them all a little more while the explore a new world.

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